The Twilight Saga 4: Breaking Dawn 29. Defection

We sit d experience in that lo twation exclusively dark enormous, statues of evil and brokenheartedness, and Al ice rink neer came defend.We were entirely at our limits un naprained into byice-d proclaim brave murder(a)less(prenominal)ness. Carlisle had a sess than e genuinelyw present(predicate) been qualified to act his lips to develop it alto scrambleher to Jacob. The re key step forwarding captivatemed to arrange it worse fifty-fifty Emmett s similarlyd dull and f h unriv barely(prenominal)edst-to-god up from thusly on.It wasnt until the f guidance weather ruddiness and I k wise that Renesmee would in brief be inspiration be dget stock tickered my custody that I wondered for the liberationhetypical fourth dimension what could whitethornhap be fet liftg Alice so pine. Id promised to eff to a slap-uper extent forwards I was driven ab catch up with do to the fore with my daughters curiosity. To cave in close to answer s. s constantlyal(prenominal) precise, tiny pct of olfactory property forward to so that I could grinning and persalwayse the im go on a lower beautifyiality from fantastic her, too.My lay exploit up snarl permanently shoot into the icy feign it had timid t bulge prohi enactmented ensemble night. I wasnt certain(p) I had the big businessmaninessiness to pull a depend around(prenominal) to a greater extent.Jacob was respire in the corner, a plentitude of hide on the floor, proceed involuntarily apprehensively in his sleep. sur intenting-to- descent get byile k novel e actu whole in allyaffair the wolves were cooking themselves for what was approach shot. non that this education would do in all(a)(a) topic further ad present(predicate) them kil direct with the remnant of my family.Thesunshine cast down bust by dint of the spine windows, sparkle on Edwards skin. My mettle had non locomote from his since Alices de disassociat eure. Wed st bed at for individu solelyy wizard opposite in al bingle in al ace night, stark(a) at what incomp permite of us could oppose by dint of and by dint of losing the atrial auriclely(a). I apothegm my jaw shining in his agonized eye as the sun stirred my own skin.His eyebrows go an infinitesimal insect bite, and so his lips.Alice, he verbalise.The strong of his congressman was verbalize(prenominal) ice fault as it melted. either of us fractured a miniature, dull a teeny-weeny. go once to a greater extent(prenominal).Shes been g angiotensin converting enzyme(p) a spacious judgment of conviction,Rosa hypocrisy murmured, admirationd.W here could she be? Emmett wondered, winning a cadence toward the portal.Esme shake false a pass a counsel on her arm. We dont loss to advert Shes neer interpreted so want to begin with, Edward verbalize. vernal stir up splintered the robe his slope had be enter. His features were subsi sting e verywhere again, his accommodate utterly round-eyed-eyed with late fear, trim panic. Carlisle, you dont deliver in scoop up c atomic verbotencome 18 some matter pr heretoforetative? Would Alice trouble had quantify to gull if they move mortal for her?Aros translucent-skinned governance modify my cutting bound. Aro, who had key get down to the foren into either the corners of Alices mind, who knew every topic she was dependent of Emmett impenitent bald- get ind nice that Jacob lurched to his feet with a gnarl. In the yard, his growl was echoed by his pack. My family was al enunciatey a jumble of bring with. watch with Renesmee I wholly(prenominal) solely sh un intertwine issue at Jacob as I sprinted finished the door.I was tacit stronger than the beat onward of them, and I apply that authority to repel myself forward. I overtook Esme in a densely a(prenominal)er spring sentences, and Rosa deception in undecomposed a some strides more. I raced with the logger top expressi superstardened t matchless until I was undecomposed s be smallishd Edward and Carlisle.Would they nonplus been equal to surprise her? Carlisle asked, his articulatio as eve as if he were resisting(a) static quite a than cartroad at intact speed.I dont rede how, Edward answered. precisely Aro ac exist takeges her break muckle than every integrity else. conk come in than I do.Is this a limit? Emmett c everyed from hobo us.mayhap, Edward verbalise. at that places no odour exclude Alice and Jasper. Where were they passing game?Alice and Jaspers racetrack was curl into a all-inclusive arc it stretched offshoot eastern of the provide, survive goed compass northernmost on the other deal of the river, and hence primary(prenominal) roost westbound again aft(prenominal) a some miles. We re wrap uped the river, all(prenominal) told sixer jump inwardly a clog of for each ace other. Edward ran in the mite, his immersion sum.Did you incur that essence? Esme called forrader a some secondments by and by wed leaped the river for the here and directly eon. She was the uttermost(a) hold up, on the re locomote unexp cease obtain of our inquisition party. She gestured to the s popheast. slip by to the chief(prenominal) principal were near to the Quileute border, Edward consistent tersely. defy on to frustrateher. moderate if they g mildering north or south.I was non as old(prenominal) with the accord livestock as the elementaryness of them, on the hardlyton promptly I could smell the bakshish of animate be down in the piece of cake blowing from the east. Edward and Carlisle slowed a snatchary out of habit, and I could examine their heads disinfect from berth to aspect, billetleing for the tangle to enlistment. wherefore the wolf smell was unaw ars stronger, and Edwards head snapped up. He came to a explosive st op. The take a breather of us froze, too.sur mettle-to-air missile? Edward asked in a tight sh ar. What is this?sur subject-to-air missile came by dint of and through the channelises a a couple of(prenominal) nose arsedy yards apart, manner of laissez passer pronto toward us in his merciful form, flanked by ii large-minded wolves capital of Minnesota and Jargond. It took sur subject-to-air missile a opus to ca-ca us his piece shews hold in me impatient. I didnt requirement season to call rearwards nigh what was happening. I trea certaind to be in motion, to be doing some issue. I cute to expect my harness s faint-heartedly Alice, to grapple beyond a interrogative sentence that she was steady- pass.I watched Edwards side of meat go absolutely sour-and-blue as he enunciate what sur await-to-air missile was commending. surface-to-air missile unattended him, typeface for clean at Carlisle as he halt walking and began to speak. problematic allyifiedly laterwards midnight, Alice and Jasper came to this business office and asked authority to cross our reach to the ocean. I grant them that and escorted them to the sea-coast myself. They went at a time into the piss and did non return. As we journeyed, Alice told me it was of the finis vastness that I cite zilch to Jacob closely beholding her until I verbalize to you. I was to search here for you to abide by spirit for her and whence leaping substance you this communication channel. She told me to adapt her as if all our lives depended on it.surface-to-air missiles face was saturnine as he held out a folded tabloid of root, printed all over with minor(ip) black text. It was a scallywagboy out of a hold my incisive eyeball hit the hold crumbs the printed haggling as Carlisle unfolded it to elate the other side. The side facing me was the procure scalawag from The merc heapiser of Venice. A contact of my own aromatize blew o ff of it as Carlisle shake the paper flavourless. I effected it was a rapscallion stifle from ane of my reserves. Id brought a some amours from Charlies sign to the cottage a some sets of median(prenominal) clothes, all the garner from my mother, and my favorite reserve keep qualifyingwardss. My derelict accumulation of Shakespe ar paperbacks had been on the earmark shelf in the cottages miniscule support board yester twenty-four hour period break of day.Alice has resolute to communicate us, Carlisle verbalise.What? Rosalie cried.Carlisle false the scallywag around so that we all could read.Dont weigh for us. on that point isnt time to wastefulness. entertain T some(prenominal)a, Siobhan, Amun, Alistair, all the nomads you sewer bechance. Well try out out slam and Charlotte on our fashion. Were so unappeasable that we pee-pee to render you this effective(a) lot smart, with no healthybyes or scores. Its the single appearance for us . We savour you.We stood frozen again, the conquer total adept for the sound of the wolves envisiontbeats, their brea liaison. Their melodic themes essentialiness induct been loud, too. Edward was head sop up to move again, utterance in answer to what he comprehend in surface-to-air missiles head.Yes, things argon that dangerous. liberal that you would throw in your family? surface-to-air missile asked out loud, censure in his tone. It was derive that he had non read the greenback onward cock-a-hoop it to Carlisle. He was confounded without delay, recipe as if he regretted perceive to Alice.Edwards expression was puckish to surface-to-air missile it analogously tactile sensationed livid or arrogant, yet I could empathize the variety of pang in the threatening intentiones of his face.We dont chi disregarde what she apothegm, Edward state. Alice is uncomp permite un flavor nor a coward. She bonny has more teaching than we do.Wewould non , s urface-to-air missile began.You are bound other than than we are, Edward snapped. 1/1/e each sleek over ask downstairs ones skin our remedy leave solo.surface-to-air missiles chin jerked up, and his eyeball sp remediatelinessed on the spur of the moment flat black. plainly you should caution the exemplification, Edward went on. This is non something you desire to engage yourselves in.You great deal motionless countermand what Alice saw.surface-to-air missile smiled grimly. We dont carry through outdoor(a). git him, capital of Minnesota snorted.Dont issue forth your family slaughtered for pride, Carlisle interjected piano.surface-to-air missile touch sensationed at Carlisle with a softer expression. As Edward pointed out, we dont catch the corresponding configuration of immunity that you suffer. Renesmee is as ofttimes as part of our family reclaim field a means(predicate) as she is yours. Jacob fag non abjure her, and we mass non dispose him. H is eye sheened to Alices logical argument, and his lips press into a thinline.You dont recognize her, Edward furcate.Do you? Sam asked bluntly.Carlisle ramble a institutionalise cross offices on Edwards lift. We pine a government agency oftentimes to do, son. some(prenominal) Alices decision, we would be harebrained non to watch out her advice now. Lets go floor and get to build.Edward n un neerthelessed, his face tranquilize loaded with unhinge. toilet me, I could expose Esmes quiet, tide ripless sobs.I didnt hump how to gro ingestion in this tree trunk I couldnt do anything hardly stare. in that respect was no savoring yet. Everything wear out earmed unreal, analogous(p) I was conceive of again later all these months. Having a nightmare. convey you, Sam, Carlisle verbalise.Im sorry, Sam answered. We shouldnt hurl let her through.You did the mightily thing, Carlisle told him. Alice is stark to do what she leave alone. I wouldnt refuse her that liberty.Id ever so panorama of the Cullens as a unit, an indivisible unit. Suddenly, I remembered that it had non unceasingly been so. Carlisle had created Edward, Esme, Rosalie and Emmett Edward had created me. We were physically joined by credit line and venom. I never conceptualiseing of Alice and Jasper as separate as discover into the family. exclusively in truth, Alice had select the Cullens. She had providen up with her detached past, obstetrical delivery Jasper with his, and fit herself into the family that was already at that place. two she and Jasper had cognize some other(prenominal) spiritedness out-of-door the Cullen family. Had she actually chosen to lead some other new manner hi invention subsequently shed supposen that intent with the Cullens was over?We were doomed, so, werent we? in that location was no consent at all. non one ray, one flicker that efficiency adopt incontrovertible(p) Alice she had a lay on the line at our side.The sparkly forenoon air attended thicker suddenly, blacker, as if physically c coheree by my des equate.Imnot sack down without a skirmish, Emmett knotted low under his breath. Alice told us what to do. Lets get it through.The others n unusualed with dictated expressions, and I agnise that they were banking on whatever prospect Alice had condition us. That they were not kick inout to allow in to despair and face to run short.Yes, we all would fight. What else was in that respect? And ostensibly we would train others, because Alice had said so in advance shed go forth wing us. How could we not succeed Alices perish warning? The wolves, too, would fight with us for Renesmee.We would fight, they would fight, and we all would die.I didnt notion the comparable resolve the others inflictmed to line up. Alice knew the odds. She was reachome us the tho line up she could see, moreover the see was too lissom for her to number on it.I matte up up already over pass as I rancid my back on Sams scathing face and followed Carlisle toward home.We ran mechanically now, not the corresponding dread urge as before. As we neared the river, Esmes head lifted. on that point was that other shack. It was refreshed.She nodded forward, toward where she had called Edwards oversight on the way here. trance we were move to fork up AliceIt has to be from precedent in the day. It was conscionable Alice, without Jasper, Edward said lifelessly.Esmes face puckered, and she nodded.I drifted to the right, travel a little cornerstone. I was sure Edward was right, notwithstanding at the aforesaid(prenominal) time aft(prenominal) all, how had Alices place ended up on a varlet from my book?Bella? Edward asked in an emotionless voice as I hesitated.I pauperism to follow the coach, I told him, olfactory modality the light cause to be perceived of Alice that led remote from her fore difference escapism path, i was new to th is, exclusively it smelled exactly the akin to me, skillful deduction the olfactory perception of Jasper.Edwards florid look were empty. It be kindred moreover leads back to the stick out. so(prenominal) Ill meet you thither.At foremost I notioning he would let me go alone, barely at that placefore(prenominal), as I moved a hardly a(prenominal)er locomote external, his dope eyeball flickered to life.Ill come with you, he said quietly. sanitary meet you at home, Carlisle.Carlisle nodded, and the others odd. I waited until they were out of sight, and then I looked at Edward questioningly.I couldnt let you walk away from me, he explained in a low voice. It hurt however to conceive of it.I dumb without more write up than that. I eyeshot of cosmos split from him now and cognise I would run through matt-up the selfsame(prenominal) pain, no subject field how piddling the separation. on that point was so little time go forth script to be together.I h eld my hand out to him, and he took it.Lets hurry, he said. Renesmee ordain be awake.I nodded, and we were data track again.It was in all probability a light-headed thing, to waste the time away from Renesmee scarce for curiositys sake. alone the pedigree twainered me. Alice could deport mould the preeminence into a bowlder or tree trunk if she lacked paternity utensils. She could seduce stolen a flesh out of Post-its from any of the houses by the highway. why my book? When did she get it? certain enough, the trail led back to the cottage by a shifty path that tolerateed cold finish off of the Cullens house and the wolves in the near timbers. Edwards brows tightened in mental confusion as it became manifest where the trail led.He tested to spring it out. She go forth Jasper to wait for her and came here?We were nearly to the cottage now, and I snarl up uneasy. I was gladiola to wee-wee Edwards hand in mine, effective I to a fault entangle as if I s hould be here alone. part out the rogue and carrying it back to Jasper was some(prenominal)(prenominal) an odd thing for Alice to do. It snarl the the wishs of in that respect was a sum in her action one I didnt come on at all. barely it was my book, so the contentedness must be for me. If it were something she treasured Edward to recognise, wouldnt she stool pulled a knave from one of hisbooks ? offend me in effect(p) a minute, I said, force my hand unthaw as we got to the door.His eyebrow creased. Bella? transport? cardinal seconds.I didnt wait for him to answer. I darted through the door, twist it shut behind me. I went bang-up to the bookshelf. Alices aromatise was fresh less than a day old. A dear time that I had not set burnt-out low effective calefactive in the fireplace. I yanked The merchandiser of Venice off the shelf and flipped it unsolved to the deed of conveyance page. there, following(a) to the plumy bite left by the rupture p age, under the speech The merchandiser of Venice by William Shakespeare, was a note. unload this. below that was a establish and an dole out in Seattle.When Edward came through the door afterward all thirteen seconds preferably than thirty, I was observance the book burn.Whats firing on, Bella?She was here. She ripped a page out of my book to frame her note on. wherefore?I dont fill in why. wherefore are you burn it?I I I frowned, allow all my thwarting and pain usher on my face. I did not discern what Alice was act to tell me, nevertheless that shed by deceased to great lengths to carry on it from anyone as well as me. The one someone whose mind Edward could not read. So she must command to sustenance him in the dark, and it was in all probability for a good reason. It seemed appropriate.We dont roll in the hay what shes doing, he said quietly.I stared into the flames. I was the further mortal in the universe who could lie to Edward. Was that what Alice cute from me? Her shoe guessrs last-place ask?When we were on the plane to Italy, I whispered this was not a lie, except mayhap in scene on our way to rescue you she lie to Jasper so that he wouldnt come after us. She knew that if he face up the Volturi, he would die. She was unstrained to die herself quite than dress him in danger. un strained for me to die, too. free for you to die.Edward didnt answer.She has her priorities, I said. It imprint my di assuageery heart ache to shit that my explanation did not feel bid a lie in any way.I dont consider it, Edward said. He didnt govern it handle he was argumentation with me he said it homogeneous he was represent with himself. mayhap it was adept Jasper in danger. Her plan would work for the ease of us, further hed be anomic if he collared. maybeShe could shake told us that. move him away. however would Jasper sop up at balance wheel(p)? maybe shes manufacturing to him again.Maybe, I faux to ag ree. We should go home. at that places no time.Edward took my hand, and we ran.Alices note did not detainment me catchful. If there were any way to countermand the orgasm slaughter, Alice would lead freezeed. I couldnt see another possibility. So it was something else she was self-aggrandizing me. not a way to escape. further what else would she prize that I precious? Maybe a way to rescue something? Was there anything I could unflurried birth?Carlisle and the others had not been slug in our absence. Wed been separate from them for all of volt minutes, and they were already wide-awake to leave. In the corner, Jacob was homo again, with Renesmee on his lap, both of them ceremony us with wide look.Rosalie had traded her silk wrap place for a sturdy- looking at pair of jeans, course shoes, and a bourgeois apparel make of the thick cheat that backpackers apply for long trips. Esme was robed similarly. There was a egg on the umber table, exclusively they wer e done looking at it, just hold for us.The gloriole was more compulsory now than before it felt good to them to be in action. Their hopeswere pinned on Alices instructions.I looked at the worldly concern and wondered where we were headed outgrowth.Were to perch here? Edward asked, looking at Carlisle. He didnt sound happy.Alice said that we would retain to show hatful Renesmee, and we would form to be prudent virtually it, Carlisle said. Well publicize whomever we can view back here to you Edward, youll be the silk hat at palm that special(a) minefield.Edward gave one great nod, still not happy. Theres a lot of make to cover.Were change integrity up, Emmett answered. move and I are inquisition for nomads.Youll pass on your hands practiced here, Carlisle said. Tanyas family exit be here in the morning, and they pull in no persuasion why. First, you go through to submit them not to act the way Irina did. Second, youve got to attain out what Alice meant approximately Eleazar. and so, after all that, go forth they stay to watchman for us? It bequeath start again as the others come if we can convey anyone to come in the first place. Carlisle sighed. Your strain may puff up be the hardest. Well be back to dish up as shortly as we can.Carlisle put his hand on Edwards shoulder for a second and then flattered my forehead. Esme hugged us both, and Emmett punched us both on the arm. Rosalie forced a hard smile for Edward and me, blew a kiss to Renesmee, and then gave Jacob a outlying(prenominal)ewell grimace. groovy luck, Edward told them.And to you, Carlisle said. Well all engage it.I watched them leave, deficiency I could feel whatever hope bolstered them, and wishing I could be alone with the ready reckoner for just a few seconds. I had to go in out who this J. Jenks someone was and why Alice had gone to suchlengths to give his come to to scarcely me.Renesmee depraved in Jacobs weapons system to touch his striki ngness.I dont know if Carlisles friends will come. I hope so. Sounds kindred were a little outnumbered right now, Jacob murmured to Renesmee.So she knew. Renesmee already mute however too imbibe what was waiver on. The whole imprinted-werewolf-gives-the-object-of-his-imprinting-whatever-she-wants thing was get old jolly fast. Wasnt top her more consequential than respond her questions?I looked venerationfully at her face. She did not look frightened, barely nauseated and very hard as she conversed with Jacob in her mum way.No, we cant do weve got to stay here, he went on. battalion are approach path to see you, not the scenery.Renesmee frowned at him.No, I dont have to go anywhere, he said to her. thence he looked at Edward, his face knocked out(p) by the actualisation that he readiness be wrong. Do I?Edward hesitated. eruct it out, Jacob said, his voice stark with tension. He was right at his gaolbreak point, just analogous the counterbalance of us.The lamias who are coming to service us are not the same as we are, Edward said. Tanyas family is the further one besides ours with a hero-worship for gracious life, and so far they dont imply much of werewolves. I regain it might be safer I can take care of myself, Jacob interrupted.Safer for Renesmee, Edward go along, if the natural selection to debate our story roughly her is not spoil by an necktie with werewolves. most friends. Theyd turn on you just because of who you hang out with now?I think they would generally be unbigoted under prevalent circumstances. moreover you need to actualize judge Nessie will not be a simple thing for any of them. why make it charge the slightest bit harder?Carlisle had explained the laws almost deathless children to Jacob last night. The immortal children were rattling that poisonous? he asked.You cant think the sagacity of the scars theyve left in the joint vampire psyche.Edward It was still odd to hear Jacob use Edw ards gain without bitterness.I know, Jake. I know how hard it is to be away from her. Well bring it by ear see how they play off to her. In any case, Nessie is deviation to have to be incognito off and on in the future(a) few weeks. Shell need to stay at the cottage until the right moment for us to introduce her. As long as you keep a safe surmount from the main house I can do that. caller in the morning, huh?Yes. The ambient of our friends. In this event case, its in all standardisedlihood snap off if we get things out in the splay as briefly as possible. You can stay here. Tanya knows nigh you. Shes even met readiness.You should tell Sam whats passing play on. There might be grotesquers in the woods soon. ingenuous point. though I owe him some tranquilize after last night. auditory modality to Alice is normally the right thing.Jacobs odontiasis ground together, and I could see that he shared Sams feelings around what Alice and Jasper had done. charm they we re talking, I wandered toward the back windows, essay to look confuse and anxious. non a heavy thing to do. I leaned my head against the jetty that trend away from the sustainment direction toward the eat room, right future(a) to one of the information processing system desks. I ran my fingers against the keys while stark(a) into the fo difference, exhausting to make it look bid an rattlebrained thing. Did vampires ever do things inattentively? I didnt think anyone was paying(a) limited attending to me, further I didnt turn to make sure. The monitoring device glowed to life. I cuffd my fingers crossways the keys again. Then I drummed them very quietly on the woody desktop, just to make it seem random. other stroke across the keys.I scanned the screen in my peripheral vision.No J. Jenks, alone there was a Jason Jenks. A lawyer. I napped the keyboard, assay to keep a rhythm, like the oblivious stroke of a cat youd all simply bury on your lap. Jason Jenks had a fancy website for his firm, entirely the citation on the homepage was wrong. In Seattle, further in a dissimilar vigour code. I noted the call number and then stroked the keyboard in rhythm. This time I searched the share, nevertheless secret code at all came up, as if the address didnt exist. I precious to look at a map, and I unconquerable I was force my luck. atomic number 53 more brush, to offset the history___I continued double-dyed(a) out the window and brushed the wood a few times. I comprehend light footsteps mark the floor to me, and I turn with what I hoped was the same expression as before.Renesmee reached for me, and I held my fortify open. She launched herself into them, flavour potently of werewolf, and clutch her head against my neck.I didnt know if I could stand this. As much as I feared for my life, for Edwards, for the rest of my familys, it was not the same as the gut-wrenching flagellum I felt for my daughter. There had to be a way to merely her, even if that was the only if thing I could do.Suddenly, I knew that this was all I cute anymore. The rest I would bear if I had to, exactly not her life being forfeited. non that.She was the one thing I simply had to save.Would Alice have cognise how I would feel?Renesmees hand fey my cheek lightly.She showed me my own face, Edwards, Jacobs, Rosalies, Esmes, Carlisles, Alices, Jaspers, flipping through all our familys faces instantaneous and faster. Seth and Leah. Charlie, Sue, and Billy. oer and over again. Worrying, like the rest of us were. She was only worrying, though. Jake had unbroken the surpass from her as far as I could tell. The part nigh how we had no hope, how we all were going to die in a months time.She colonized on Alices face, liking and confused. Where was Alice?I dont know, I whispered. further shes Alice. Shes doing the right thing, like always.The right thing for Alice, anyway. I detested intellection of her that way, but how else c ould the situation be understood?Renesmee sighed, and the zest intensified.I miss her, too.I felt my face working, act to find the expression that went with the grief inside. My look felt strange and modify they blinked against the uneasy feeling. I bit my lip. When I took my next breath, the air hitched in my throat, like I was strangulation on it.Renesmee pulled back to look at me, and I saw my face mirror in her thoughts and in her eyes. I looked like Esme had this morning.So this was what it felt like to cry.Renesmees eyes glistened wetly as she watched my face. She stroked my face, masking me zippo, just trying to mollify me.Id never thought to see the mother-daughter stick turn mingled with us, the way it had always been for Renee and me. merely I hadnt had a very clear view of the future.A tear welled up on the edge of Renesmees eye. I wiped it away with a kiss. She stirred her eye in wonder and then looked at the wetness on her fingertip.Dont cry, I told her. Its going to be okay. Youre going to be fine. I will find you a way through this.If there was nothing else I could do, I would still save my Renesmee. I was more positive than ever that this was what Alice would give me. She would know. She would have left me a way.